Irrationally Persistent

I, myself, have always been a stubborn person. I have a strong willingness to achieve what I wish for, and to get what I feel like I deserve to have. As much as I remember, there were many blessings in my life that unbelievably happened as good as I want it to be. Once, when I was at junior high, I demanded a cell-phone (which was one of the fanciest thing at that time, and me.. some growing up teenager expected to have one). When I told my dad about my wish, he said, “Ok, but you have to have the highest score on your national exam..”. And I was like, “Who-hoa.. ok.. that sounds unlikely to happen.. “. But then, I don’t know how it began, but in the end.. thankfully, I was able to get what I want..

Next thing was when I was at senior high.. I was at my granny’s car, accompanying my cousin to Depok. Passing University of Indonesia, I was stunned.. wow, it would be cool to be able to go there and have that title ‘UI student’. I said to me and to my cousin, “This is my next school..”. I laughed out loud at that time, and so did my cousin. And yes, I was a UI student.

There are few blessed things I had in life, if I may not say miraculous. Looking back on what I had those days, I am very thankful for what I had, have, and be having. I am fully aware that those things are not coming coincidently. No way.. it cannot be that way. And so I believe HIS power which makes everything possible for me to achieve. Thank You..
I also believe that I eventually be able to get what I wish for whenever I believe in it. But sometimes it seems very difficult to be reached, and it seems stupid to still be staying where I am to be able to have what I want. So far, my faith brought me to the place where I should belong, and from the point I can see why I should have it.

My loved one once told me about a book he was reading, it’s called ‘the secret’. The book said that if we want something, think about it all time, and the whole universe will help us to get what we want. From where I see, the book got the point. Simply put, when we want something and we think about it all the time, we unconsciously do things that will eventually bring us there. And believe it or not, there we are.

Sometimes it will be seen as irrational, especially when something we believe in is against common view. They will see us as a time-consuming moron who continuously hope for something that impossibly reachable. But for me, maybe it’s only a matter of time. Perhaps it is a waiting worth to wait, and it took more time to learn how to be patient and acceptance (I was about to say ‘inhales’, but I cannot find a good word in English to rephrase the word..), so that we can appreciate more what we are about to achieve. And one thing for sure, irrational/rational is one hell subjective term.

Every of us has the right to perceive what we believe is rational.
So would be wrong to fight for what we believe? No, we already conclude. But for how long must we stay and believe? What is the ‘enough’ line which will tell us when to stop, and when to keep fighting? The answer is, take a deeper look at your heart. Something inside will tell you.. and it’s when you will find your ‘udah’. For how long? A year? A decade? A minute? It’s you who can answer it.
Keep fighting for what you believe, ok? Because I’m doing the same thing..