my mental retardation
I was thinking, why God created such feelings called envy and dissatisfaction? So that humans don’t get satisfied too soon? Or is it because it has to be like that, otherwise world will go static and powerless? But how long until we come to the end, of satisfaction? The most important thing is, can we?
I feel a lot of those feelings recently. God might slap me on my face, “Hey, I gave you everything you’ve asked for, but how come you keep on moaning for more?!”. On a second thought, maybe He won’t. I’m a very envious kind of person, you see. I really can’t stand still, seeing other people having and being better that I am. Is it normal or what? Maybe you say, “Nin, you have a very big sense of competition by that!”. But mostly, those two feelings keep me drowning even deeper instead of taking me higher than before.
See, many people told me, “Jangan selalu liat ke atas, Nin.. sekali2 nengok deh ke bawah..”. I did.. I did it many times.. and it works. But when it comes to losing my sanity, the effort might not work at all. My mood and egoistic part of me take control. And when that happens, I can only say, “Forgive me God, for being so human..”.
Lately I also feel I’m having some sort of MAIR (Mental and Intelligence Retardation, -red à ciptaan gw doang siy.. abis ga tau lagi musti nyebutnya apaan.. =D). My bosses seem like very tired of my ‘lemotness’, and the other proof of my MAIR was when I did my test on
OshKosh last Wednesday. I did the numbers calculation VERY slowly, much slower than my previous test (I forgot where I did it). I feel like I’m losing my concentration very easily, and I’m having a difficulty in staying focus on what I’m doing. What has happened to me?
My love one said to me, “Ah, mungkin bener2 lagi ada yg dipikirin banget kali?! Iya ngga? Mulai sekarang coba bener2 konsen & fokus kalo ngobrol sm orang lain ato ngelakuin sesuatu.”. He told me previously that I often ask about something I asked before. Isn’t it scary or what??? *sigh*
Oia, besok aku mo jalan sm temen2.. mudah2an perasaan2 yg aku ceritain di atas ga semakin menggila…
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hai semua..
setelah beberapa bln ngga nulis di blog, hari ini aku bertekad akan lebih rajin lagi nulis di blog.. amin..
jadi ceritanya gw abis spent my weekend di sby, nanggok acaranya nyak-babe di sana. ogud sm mi’un nyusul hari jum’at, naek pesawat yg jam 19.55. dari kantor cabs jam stgh 5, takut macet doongg.. ternyata salah perhitungan waktu!!! ogud sampe di airport jam stgh 6 aja gitu.. terus bertemu seseorg juga di sana (there’s nothing in this world beyond God’s will). dan ternyata pesawatnya delay aja gituuuuu.. ogud baru take off jam 9 lewat gitu. sampe di sby, dijemput pacar tersayang yg ditemani oleh dimas (yg baru lulus dan ditawarin kerjaan di jkt.. congrats ya, mas!!!). senangnya bertemu pacar lagi.. kemudian pacar mengantarkan ogud dan ade ogud ke rumah tante mul di daerah makarya binangun. aku tertidur sambil tersenyum..
terus hari sabtu siangnya ogud dijemput lagi sm pacar tersayang. kita (plus babi laut a.k.a ade gw) ke TP. di sana udah menanti si nia (dan "teman"nya), terus kita berlima ntn film thriller TJ berjudul the exorcism of emily rose. gara2 ntn itu, ogud plus pacar, babi laut & nia, selalu mengkait2kan kejadian mistis di mana pun dg emily rose (kasian amat ya si emily..). terus abis itu kami berpisah, ogud plus pacar dan babi laut makan di food court (ktm mensen, temen SMA ogud & pacar, -red). terus ketemu iin juga di disc tarra sebentar. karena si babi laut pengen pupi, jadi setelah ke gramed, ogud, pacar, babi laut plus nia lgsg apa ‘apa saya segera ke hotel!!!’.
di hotel kita teje2an rame2 gitu. bonyok ogud & nia kan lagi ada acara BMPD di pakuwon, jadinya si nia ngungsi ke hotel kita. oia, ogud pacirun.. hehehehe.. senang skaliiii, dengerin iPod berdua, terus senderan gitu.. sementara si babi laut belajar (minggu depan mo ujian) dan nia sibuk dengan ‘lelaki2nya’ (pake acara t*i-t*i-an segala pula!!!). terus jam stgh 11, ogud dan pacar nganterin nia ke hotelnya, sementara babi laut tidur (yg saking pulesnya, waktu mamah ogud dateng, doi ga bangun padahal udah dibel2 plus ditelf2. alhasil, mamah ogud musti minta kunci lagi ke resepsionis..). end of day #2 at sby…
hari minggunya, after breakfast ogud ke rumah iin. ya udahlah di sana curhat-curhit, ngerumpiin orang (hah? si ar** suka -lagi- sm wi**? emang kapan pernah suka2an?), ya gitu2 deh.. terus pacar ogud jemput, dan kita bertiga makan sushi di hachi2 manyar (shrimp tempura roll-nya enak bgtd!!!!). abis dari situ, kita langsung ke juanda.. si achie sm kuya ternyanya nyusul ke sana. terus kita foto2 gebleg gitu di juanda, diliatin orang2 scr pake blitz2 plus gaya2 aneh gitu. huhuhu.. akhirnya ogud musti pulang ke jkt lagi…
oia.. ogud skrg udah mulai kerja di JWT, sebuah perusahaan biro iklan tersohor di jagad periklanan indonesia (yakin lo, cil?). ahh.. aku malas membahasnya.. pokoknya begitu lahhh…
ya sud, ogud mo teje2an lagi niy di kantor.. sampai jumpa lagi…
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