..jintian.. hari ini.. today..

aduuuh.. kok malesssss bgtd ya mo mulai ngetik bab 5. selain itu, i don’t really have any clue what to do about it.
hmm, cuma mo kasih quote of the day niy..
“TO LOSE EVERYTHING IS THE FEAR THAT STOPS YOU FROM MOVING FORWARD”

hmm.. sounds familiar…

bab 4

akyu baru mo bikin bab 4 niiiy.. doain lancar yaa.. =D

hole in my soul

..i try to hide from your side, but each place i hide, they only remind me of you.. (ga tau siapa yg nyanyi, tapi gara2 kemaren seharian dengerin wednesday slow machine-nya kis fm dan lagu ini bolak-balik diputer, jadinya terngiang2 terus. selain itu juga karena ini lagu curhat colongan siy..

..salahkahku bila.. kaulah yang ada di hatiku.. (track 14, maliq & d’essentials.. lagu fenomenal, bukan hanya karena ga tertulis di song list di cover cd-nya, tapi juga karena liriknya.. aduh.. curhat colongan semua orang nampaknya.. khususnya akyu..)

..so raise your hands to heaven and pray, that we’ll be back together someday.. (hands to heaven, christian bautista.. lagu lama siy, tapi akyu tak tau siapa penyanyi aslinya. yah, lagi2 lagu curhat colongan.. kalo denger lagu ini, pengennya ngayaaaal truuuusss… hihihi..)

people from the past

uuuh… why do you keep on bugging me? you’re supposed to be out of my mind!!!!!!!! menyebalkan..

single (reason) or taken (for granted)

few things happened recently have made me realize that there’s nothing in this world that would last forever. highlander is the only person who’s immortal, and the fact is.. he’s just a fiction character. there’s nothing.. i mean nothing.. people would do and decide.. beyond God’s will..

i have a lecturer.. we, my friends and i, love him very much. not only because the fact that he’s gorgeous (mirip beruang forever friends.. aduh, lucu bgtd..), but he’s also nice, incredibly smart, and very success on his job. he resigned as our head of department in order to accept other terrific job, the chairman of indonesian broadcasting committee (KPI, -red). we really admire him for what he has and for what he is. one day, a news came by, told us that he’s dying helpless in the hospital. he got stroke.. it was his first stroke, and for that.. he was instantly powerless, had been comma for several days (pangkal tenggorokannya musti dipasangin selang utk saluran makannya dia). in order to assist the job of his organ, some medical equipments was put all over his body. a great man, with power, success, intelligence, good-looking face.. is lying helpless.. only because one single stroke.. in a second, everything he has seems like nothing, his life is endangered.. in a second..

last wednesday, early in the morning, i had a very shocking news.. a friend of mine and his girlfriend had an accident on the previous day. he had lungs bleeding, and her arms were broken. on the same day, we went to the hospital, but we could only see him. she was still in the surgery room to clean up her blood, wounds, and stuffs that i didn’t even want to imagine. i stepped into his room, he was lying there.. helpless.. very pale, so weak.. at the moment, i stood still.. i didn’t have any clue what to do. i wasn’t used to visit people in the hospital. in fact, i hate being in a hospital. then i came toward him, i said, ‘hai, yan..’. i still didn’t know what to do. he lifted his right arm, i grabbed it. i held his hand, and i caressed it. we were never that close actually (ya.. walopun anak owan sebenernya udah muhrim semua, dan doi adalah ketua kelompok 7, kelompokku tercinta), but then.. in a second, i was so damn afraid of losing him. i really couldn’t imagine what would it be to lose a friend that way. i really couldn’t stand to see him like that, i was really touched. in a second, i might lose a friend. though we’re only ordinary friends, i don’t want to lose him that way.. in a second..

i was thinking, in a second, we might lose everything we’ve got. it would only take a second.. we don’t even realize the process, but once it happens.. on the exact moment, we will know how precious it was.. it still is..

we often take for granted things that we thought they were nothing, they were only things that were not that important, were not that special enough to be thought. we often think that without them, we’ll be perfectly okay. but sometimes, those taken for granted things do matter. they can be the most precious things in the world for us. and by the time we realize that, they’re already gone..

only for a single reason, let’s stop taking for granted of everything we’ve got. simple things matter.. there’s nothing in this world happens without a reason. let’s start appreciate what we have, even if it seems like nothing. because once it’s taken from us, we can never get it back and just feel sorry for the rest of our life..

for those out there, whom i know, who know me, and for just everybody.. i just want to let you guys know that i’m so thankful to have you.. thanks for being in my life for whatever reason you’re being with.. i do deeply love you, guys..