curhat hari ini..

hari ini ngga ke kampus.. di rumah aja.. harusnya siy doing something yg ada hubungannya sm skripsi2an (panik juga secara pas smsan sm tanti, dia lagi di depan komputer aja gitu, ngerjain skripsi.. huhuhu.. mengandung iri..). sementara yg gw lakukan hari ini cuma makan & tidur. udah kayak babi deh, tinggal gw ber-’oink.. oink..’, mirip bgtd. apalagi dg perut yg membuncit.. (tapi kata orang2 gw kurusan.. amin.. hehehe.. senengnya dibilang kurusan..=D). tapiii.. boleh berbangga hati ah, hari ini gw baca2 bukunya mas lexy moleong (dipanggil mas soalnya dia temennya mbak oni, pembimbing utama gw yg hari ini ato besok gitu berangkat aja ke belanda..). dan insya Allah, i made up my mind kayaknya gw pake etnometodologi deh.. (haaallaaaaah.. ga penting ya ngomongin etnometodologi di blog? tapi ini kan blog gw, suka2 gw dong mo ngomongin apaan).

terus tadi les mandarin sore2, di tengah hujan.. (waktu hujan sore-sore.. kilat sambar pohon kenari..). seneng deh, soalnya gw rada2 ngerti hanzi. tapi sebelnya, UTS gw kemaren ada bagian yg gw salah total krn gw ga ngerti perintahnya.. huhuhuu.. keseeeell.. eh, tapi dapet 81 loooh.. hehehe… laoshi gw emang baekkk.. hehehe..

eh, pernah ga siy ngerasa salting sendiri berada di dekat seseorang yg lo tau kalo dia ada feeling sm lo? ih, gw sebel deh.. masa gw tadi salting2 sendiri gitu.. ga penting bgtd deh.. lah, yg punya feeling kan dia, kenapa jadi gw yg salting, coba? dasar..

hmm.. apalagi ya.. maunya malem ini tidur cepet, biar besok pagi bangunnya pagi2 trus langsung deh ngetik bab 3 seharian. mudah2an besok bab 3 reformasi gw udah slese.. jadinya hari jum’at bisa gw pamerin ke mbak kiki (konsultan metodologi gw yg abis dari Bali tapi ga bawa oleh2.. huhuhu.. jangan pergi lagi dong, mbak..). ngomong2 soal reformasi, gw baca di koran katanya PDI Perjuangan pecah gitu, dan ada PDIP tandingan. buset, bukannya PDIP itu tandingannya PDI biasa setelah yg rame2 taun ‘96 itu ya? jadinya tandingan kuadrat dong ya?

btw, kok gempa yg di nias itu serem bgtd yaa.. masa’ tadi gw liat ada orang yg kekubur reruntuhan sampe yg keliatan cuma kepalanya doang. padahal tuh cowo gendut gitu, bapak2.. lah, gimana kalo gw yg kena reruntuhan ya? udah pejret kali ya? ih, amit2 jabang beybi ah.. jangan sampe.. oia, sodaranya si ferdi (senior gw, anak kom ‘98) ada yg kena ngga ya? mudah2an ngga deh..

huaaaaaahhh.. masih untung masih bisa skripsi..

life..

have you ever been so generous? you plan to give someone, could be your anyone, something nice.. something you give without any particular intention, all you want is to wish for that someone to enjoy you something you give him/her. what kind of respond do you wish to see from that someone? do you expect some big gratitude, million of thank you’s, or even a single sincere smile? what if that someone is really grateful and be very excited of what you give him/her? will you still plan to give that someone another something?

how if that someone moan and show some refusal in his/her face, though he/she doesn’t show it verbally? what if you get is not what you wish for? will you still plan to give that someone another something?

that might be exactly what happen to us in life.. if we’re willing to be very thankful and enjoy every single thing God give us, then He will plan to give us some more and another something.. but if we continue to moan, to regret, to refuse every single sadness, happiness, failure, success, and other things that come to us, He might be very disappointed and probably will stop giving..

so.. start being thankful and stop moaning… doing your thesis, being left by your advisor, searching for your true love, being not able to have what you wish for.. there must be something behind it.. just be thankful for having those all.. without it, our life might not be the same…

(from and for a friend.. whom i love so much….)

skripsi

skripsi… why is it so hard for me to bring you to this life…

my love..

is it really true, that good things come to those who wait? then how long must we wait? how long until the one appears and unity we become?

how about when the presence of someone who’s nearly perfect won’t change anything, while he might be someone who’s supposed to be the one you’ve been looking for?

it’s connected with the phrase, ‘you can’t always get what you want, but you will get what you need’. i think it’s true.. but how if my leg is stepping on one earth, while another one is on the other? and that one earth where my leg is stepping on, is the world of dream.. the world of hope.. the world of wishes.. where i still can’t figure whether i’m able to have or not.. and another one.. is the one where i can find reality.. where i can see the future.. where i can hold on to..

love.. why is it so hard for me to have you…

(nina ngemeng ape siiiiiyyyyyyyy?????)

hari ini

hmmm.. hari ini penuuh dengan ke-mellow-an (tanti miranti, 2005). banyak air mata yg tumpah di sana-sini.. (hmm, di sini jugaaaa..). tapi bener siy, it’s supposed to be hard, karena kalo ngga, semua orang bakal bisa ngelewatin ini dengan baik (hario hadiwaseso, 2005). tapi kan semua orang pasti bisa ngelewatin ini, maksudnya skripsi.. (ancil, 2005). iya siy, tapi yg ngelewatin ini dengan baik, belom tentu semua bisa ya.. (ngga tau siapa yang bilang, 2005).
people can’t always get what they want, but they will get what they need.. (hario hadiwaseso, lupa kapan dia bilang gini..). huhuhuhu……….. kenapa yaa…..